It’s been exactly one year since you left us
I wish, they were true about the after demise star thing.
I wish, you really became a distant star
I would have stared at them endlessly just to see you once more
Because, I had too many things to say which I never did.
They say, light will guide you home.
But what’s a home without you Baba?
I had to ask you why they didn’t allow me in your Janajah.
I rage, rage and rage against everyone looking at me surprisingly.
My grief, my agony — pulled me underground.
I just wanted to see you a little more…
Whilst I was far away from home, you had changed a lot.
It’s suffocating, I can’t see your beaming smile anymore
This thought and struggle linger on
I had so much to ask from you.
About life, love, ehics, morality, truth, sacrifice, kindness, loyalty, respect, commitment, compassion and philosophy.
But you were in such a hurry!
Will I ever forget the day?
When I received a text saying, your dad passed away
When I lost you, I lost a part of me
I lost the person who loved me selflessly
All I have now, are some pictures
And I can barely remember your voice nowadays
Will someday I will fail to recall you Baba?
All the books you’ve gifted me are the last memories I will hold onto forever
Is that what life has to offer to me?
A lifetime torture
An emptiness
A void
Unworthiness
I wish you were just one call away
I have so much to tell you
I have to go home, I’m tired
But what’s a home without you?